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Part 1
The sun shone through
’s bedroom window, its rays landing on her pillow where her head was rested. She stirred slightly and opened her eyes.
“8.00am,” read her alarm clock. She let out a sigh and slowly got out of bed and went to the bathroom. She didn’t
want to go to school…she never wanted to go to school… all because of
. She could not understand why he hated her so much. She had never done anything to him, let alone even talk much to him.
His recent shoves and pushes were hurting her, she didn’t know why he liked to push her around every single time he
saw her. As she stood in the shower, she thought back on what had happened a year ago…
-Flashback-
“Hey guys! This is my kid sister
, she’s starting school here this year, so I hope you lot will show her around as well,” said
to his mates;
and
. I looked from
to
and fell in love with him instantly. I thought that it would be great to be friends with
’s friends. “Yea, sure!” said
“Whatever…” said
softly, making sure that
didn’t hear him.
-End of Flashback-
Ever since that day,
had been shoving her around, making her life a living hell. He liked to push her away when he was walking pass her or even
shove her when they were queuing up for lunch. “If he hates me so much…why can’t he just leave me alone??”
thought
as she went downstairs…to be greeted by
. “Morning!” said
as he bit into the piece of toast he was eating. “Morning,” said
softly.
didn’t know that
had been pushing her around. He didn’t have to know, if
told him, his friendship with
would certainly come to an end, because
was very overprotective over her, and would stand up for
for anything.
Only two of them stayed at their house, their parents were constantly away,
working. They only got to see their parents a few times a year but their parents always sent back loads of money. But that
wasn’t what
wanted, she wanted a real family…and someone to love her besides her brother.
* * *
“Listen,
and
are going to stay over for the night, that okay with you?” asked
.
’s heart stopped suddenly, “
staying the night?! He is going to make my day miserable,” she thought. She was pretty scared of him, but nothing changed
her feeling of love towards him. You may think that she’s a weird girl, loving someone who hates her so much, but she
couldn’t help it, her feelings for
were much too strong…
“Hey? You ok? I can tell them that you aren’t comfortable with them
staying the night,” asked
, concerned.“No! It’s ok, I’m cool with it. I was just in my little dream world, that’s all,”
said
, trying to sound cheerful. She didn’t want
to suspect anything. “Well, ok, I think we’d better leave now, won’t want to be late for school. Mr. Thatcher
gave me a warning yesterday,” sighed
.
chuckled at him, thinking about yesterday. Mr. Thatcher had caught him sneaking into the form window so that he could avoid
the teaches who patrolled the corridor for late students.
always knew how to cheer her up, but he could get really overprotective at times, which was really annoying.
* * *
“Ouch…,” sighed
as
shoved past her. He had shoved her so hard that she had slammed against a nearby wall, dropping her books. She couldn’t
understand why he had to push her around, and giving her such a hard time in school. It was pure torture, he would shove and
push without saying a word at all, acting as though she invisible, or part of the wall. Just a week ago, he had found out
that she liked him. She had no idea how he had found out…but…she knew what his reaction would be. He treated her
worse than before, shoving her hardly away and even ‘accidentally’ knocking her books out of her hand each time
he walked past.
As she picked her books up, she felt a pain on her right arm. She lifted up
the sleeve slightly, to discover an ugly looking bruise. It must have appeared when her right arm had slammed against the
wall. She held back her tears, and bit her bottom lip. “Why does he have to be so cruel?” she thought. The only
problem was that
didn’t seem to realize that he had been causing her bruises and light injuries each time he pushed or shoved her. “
and
don’t need to find out about them…” she said softly to herself. If
ever discovered
’s cuts and bruises, he would certainly kill the person who had done this, and she couldn’t let their strong friendship
fall apart. She wanted both of them to be happy.
* * *
“Hey!
! Over here!” shouted
from across the lunch hall.
walked towards her hyper-active brother and yelled, “Alright!! I’m coming!” She loved the way her brother
acted, he was a happy-go-lucky kind of guy and didn’t give a damn about what other people said about him. As she drew
nearer, her smile faded when she saw
sitting beside
. He didn’t even look up when
approached them, he just continued on with his lunch. She felt a little hurt seeing him ignoring her, but she pushed the feeling
away. She was used to his cold and silent treatment towards her. But, she didn’t want to spoil her brothers mood. “Yes?
What is it my hyper-active bro?”
asked. “Look what I’ve got!!” he grinned widely and took out a DVD from his bag. “Umm,
, hate to break it to you…but…it’s just a DVD.” “Just look at the cover,” he said excited
and impatient. “Oh no…oh no…you wouldn’t….you are not making me watch THAT!” exclaimed
. The DVD was actually the latest horror movie and
HATED watching horror movies. “Oh yes you are, me,
and
are going to watch it, same for you as well,” grinned
. He walked off, he needed to get himself a drink. Leaving her with
.
turned, deciding to walk off, she didn’t want to be in
’s way, she knew that he didn’t like her. Then. She heard
say, “Stay out of my way tonight.”
’s heart ached with pain, and she felt a lump in her throat. His words were so cold, ice cold. No sympathy in them,
just harsh cruel words that tore her heart apart. “You knew he was going to say this,” thought
as she held her tears back. He didn’t even bother to look up to her when he said it. “If you say so…”
she said to him, her back turned, her fingers gripping her music file tightly. Then she walked away. * * *
looked at herself in the mirror and let out a sigh. She pushed her sleeves down and put on her long pants, and made sure that
no cuts and bruisers would be seen. “The guys should be here any minute now,” thought
. She went downstairs to the living room and ordered two large pizzas. She knew what they liked best.
came down a few minutes later and was surprised to see her in such hot clothes. “Hey,
. Why are you wearing those? Looks really hot…”questioned
, concerned. “Oh, I’m just being careful, you never know if
and
might ‘accidentally’ see something, you know,” said
, trying to cover up the truth. “Oh, yea, I get what u mean,” said
and slumped down on the sofa. Amy breathed a sigh of relief, she really didn’t want
or
to find out about her cuts and bruisers. Suddenly, the door bell rang.
went to answer the door, seeing that
was talking on the phone. She opened the door to see
and
standing outside.
gave her a tight hug and said ‘hi’. But when she came to
, she stepped out of his way, she didn’t want to get in his way, just like he had said. Luckily,
and
didn’t notice this.
just brushed past her and didn’t give say a ‘hi’, let alone even glance at her.
knew that this was the way he acted towards her, and quickly brushed a silent tear away. “Hey guys!” said
. He had just put the phone down and walked towards
and
. “Hey listen, I can’t crash here tonight. Mum wants me home,” said
. “Oh, I guess it’s just me,
and
then”
just nodded in agreement and went to get some drinks for the guys. She took three bottles of WKD from the fridge and handed
them to the guys. “You’re not having one for yourself?” asked
“Nah, not in the mood,” replied
.The night went by pretty fast,
had left at 11pm and
was completely ignoring
as usual.
failed to notice this because he was pretty wasted.
* * *
Halfway through the movie,
glanced at the clock, “3am,” read the clock. She looked over to where the guys were sitting and was surprised
to see that
and
had fallen asleep. She giggled silently to herself and switched off the video. She then went to the spare room and grabbed
a handful of blankets and pillows for the guys downstairs. She took the empty WKD bottle out of his hand and covered her sleeping
brother, who was lying on the floor, with a blanket, and carefully lifted his head slightly and placed a pillow underneath.
She then walked over to
, who was sprawled on the sofa. She carefully tucked the blanket around him, she didn’t want to wake him up. She look
at his face and let out a sigh, she loved him so much…but he hated her. She washed everything up and then went upstairs
to her room. She couldn’t sleep yet, many thoughts raced inside her head. She sat down on her bed, and took her acoustic
guitar from her bedside and started to play. Little did she know that
was looking at her from the gap of her doorway. His face broke into a smile when he saw her strumming the strings on her guitar.
He pushed the door open slightly and
looked up, shocked to see
standing there. The colour drained from her face when she saw him there. “What did I do now?” thought
. “Yes,
? Did I wake you up? If I did, I’m sorry….” said
softly, wanting to avoid his gaze. “It’s nothing,” he said coldly, and walked back downstairs. “What
was I thinking?” thought
as he sat back down on the sofa. Back upstairs,
was thinking about what had happened. “Why was he standing in my doorway?” And why did he just walk off?”
she thought. Then she thought that it may be a good sign since
had at least started talking to her. But then, the coldness in his voice…she pushed the thoughts away and went to sleep.
-Next Morning-
woke up the next morning and went downstairs. The two guys were still sleeping
away, so she decided to cook breakfast before they went to school. It had been a while since the guys had eaten a good breakfast
because
didn’t really have time to cook for them. After she had made breakfast, which was sunny-side-up eggs with bacon, she
went to wake the boys. She gave
a prod but he didn’t even respond…he just kept sleeping away. She then tapped him lightly on the cheek and his
eyes slowly fluttered open. “No…5 more minutes,” whined
. “No way! You don’t want your bacon and eggs to get cold right?” “OK! I’m up!” he sprang
up after hearing the words ‘eggs and bacon’ “You wake
,” said
and pointed to the sleeping
on the sofa.
didn’t wait for a reply; he had already sprinted to the kitchen.
gave a sigh and turned towards
. She was afraid to wake him up. What if he shouted or yelled at her? Finally, after a few seconds, she poked him slightly
and quickly stepped back. He stirred slightly and opened his eyes. “Morning
. Breakfast is in the kitchen, feel free to help yourself. Just thought you should know. And, I’ve put your school
uniform on the chair in
’s room so you can get it from there,” said
and quickly walked away because she was afraid that he might hurt her again by pushing her away. Seeing her walk away,
felt guilty. “She must be really afraid of me…” He felt bad, she was being nice, trying to be friends with
him by cooking breakfast, setting out his clothes, covering him with a blanket, and all he did was ignore her and push her
away. He pushed the feelings away. That’s the way he wanted her to be; afraid, hurt, so that she wouldn’t get
into his way.
Part 2
“Oi!
! Your breakfast is getting cold!” shouted
got up from the sofa and walked slowly to the kitchen. He sat down on the chair and began to eat his breakfast that
had made for them. She smiled slightly when she saw
eating it. “How’s the breakfast
? Is it ok for you?” she asked. He just gave a nod without looking up. “Come on
! Give her a proper answer, she woke up early in the morning to cook it for us. At least show a little bit of appreciation.”
said
, annoyed with
’s attitude. When
looked away,
gave
an angry glare. If she hadn’t open her mouth,
wouldn’t have said anything! “Breakfast is okay.” he just mumbled. A little plan was forming in his mind,
he wanted her to back off. He didn’t want her to do things for him. She’s just trying to make me feel bad. Thought
. He was really stubborn, he couldn’t see that
just wanted to be friends with him. Actually, she wanted to me more than friends, but that was completely impossible with
the way he is treating her.
-Later on in school-
saw
walking down the corridor, her back facing him. He knew what would really tear her apart…oh yes…he knew. He quickly
shoved past her, knocking her to the ground, making his way to his ‘girlfriend’,
. She was one of girls who were…well…’fake’. That was what
thought about
and her mates. Always wearing too much make up, their clothes tight and skimpy, every guy’s definition of a ‘perfect’
girl.
knew what to do, he tapped
on the shoulder and she turned round and he kissed her smack on the lips. Totally ignoring the stares of other people in
the crowd. His tongue was practically down her throat….
sat on the ground, frozen on the stop. Sure she knew that
was
‘s girlfriend. But this was tearing her up…she didn’t know why her feelings for him kept growing stronger…she
tried her best to hate him as well, but to no avail…she couldn’t control her feeling of love towards him. Seeing
him kiss
drew tears to her eyes, but she fought the pain in the heart and held back her tears.
took a quick glance at
, and saw her sitting helplessly on the floor. He flashed a quick triumphant grin, no one noticed this. His plan had gone
exactly the way he wanted. He knew that it was tearing her up inside. But…he couldn’t help but feel a little guilty
as he saw her slowly pick up her books and walk off in the opposite direction, her head hung low. As soon as she had seen that
was no where in sight, she walked straight into an empty classroom, which happened to be the music room. She sat on one of
the chars and cried her heart out, her head resting on her hands. God,
…how could you be so cruel? Do you think I’m just a pawn with no feelings? Just a wall in you’re path?
What did I ever do to you? Questions kept buzzing in her head as she sat there. Her heart had already been torn apart when
he had started to push her around. And now, he was torturing her mentally. Ripping out her heart even more. Then, as she thought
about
, an old memory came back to her.
…No,
, don’t think about him. She forced
out of her head…she didn’t want to think about him, let alone think about him. She dried her tears and told herself,
Come on
, pull yourself together…it’s no use crying over
…you have to be strong… Is pushing me around a mere amusement to him? Or is there something else behind it? As
she walked down the corridor, she was thinking. Why does he hate me so much? Doesn’t he know the pain and injuries he
is making me go through? Her mind was set, it was high time she should stand strong and not let her emotions get in the way.
She had to confront him sooner or later…
-After School-
was walking back home from school. As she walked along the pavement, she could
hear advancing footsteps behind her. She knew who it was but before she could step out his way, he had tripped her and sent
her down to the ground while he continued to walk away. That’s it! This has to end now! “
!” she yelled and picked her books up. He stopped abruptly when she called him. This was different, it was the first
time she had reacted to his pushes and shoves. He didn’t expect this but he continued to walk on when he heard her catching
up to him. She continued to follow him, she had to know the reason why he had been pushing her around. “
! For God’s sakes! Listen and stop when someone is trying to talk to you!”
stopped again. This wasn’t what he expected at all. But it was still angering him. He finally turned round to face
her but was shocked to see tears forming in her eyes. “Why do you keep doing this to me
? What have I ever done to you?” she said, her voice slightly shaky but she kept it strong. “It’s none
of your business!” And I’m surprised you don’t already know!! It was all your fault in the first place!!”
he yelled back at her. He could see a mixture of emotions in her brown eyes – anger, fear and…hurt…Before
he knew it, he felt her hand slap him squarely across his face. He was taken aback. He never expected this reaction, he had
never expected any of this, and he thought she would have just walked away. “None of my business!? None of my business??”
shouted
. What did he mean it was my fault in the first place. “
, do you think I’m just a robot with no emotions at al? Do you think you can just push me around whenever you like?”
shouted
. She was so overcome with emotion and now tears were flowing freely down her cheeks. She waited for
to respond but he just stood there, shocked, he didn’t know that she would suddenly burst, “I though so…,”
she whispered, slowing calming down. She was about to walk past him.
was furious, she was supposed to stay well clear of him and be scared of him. He wasn’t going to let her just walk
away like this. Before she had even got far, she felt his hand tightly gripping on her arm and she winced in pain.
saw her facial expression change drastically from anger to plain fear…he was surprised, surely just a grip wont hurt
her that much? Before she could yank her arm away from his grasp, he had already pulled up her sleeve to reveal about half
a dozen bruises all over her arm. He quickly let go of her arm in shock and she frantically pulled the sleeve down and ran
away.
looked at her run, still shocked at what he had just seen. “Were those injuries caused by me?” he thought….
Part 3
“No…he wasn’t supposed to find out…” thought
. She ran away when
had discovered her bruises. She kept running al the way home, not once looking back. She was afraid to face
. She opened her front door and ran up to her room;
wasn’t home yet. She sat on her in the corner of her room, still worried and shocked. “What’s going to
happen now…?” she thought as tears started to flow down her cheeks once more.
had followed
home. Feelings of intense guilt was overcoming him. He didn’t mean for the bruises to happen, he just wanted her to
be afraid. Little did he know he had been hurting her physically as well all along. When he had discovered her bruises, he
saw the fear in her eyes; she looked like a scared little kitten. He was finding it hard to shake that image out of his head.
He opened the front door of her’s and
’s place; he had a spare key. He saw her books and her bag on the floor and she was nowhere in sight. “She must
be upstairs,” he thought.
went upstairs quietly and heard sobs from her room. He gently pushed open the door and saw
sitting in the corner of her bedroom, hugging her legs, her face buried in her knees. She looked up when she heard her door
being open and saw
standing there looking at her. Her emotions of sadness immediately changed to fear and she tried to back away…but she
was already in the corner.
“
…please…don’t hurt me anymore…” she whispered.
stood there, tears starting to from in his eyes. He didn’t mean for his ‘bullying’ to go this far. She
wasn’t the ‘scared’ he wanted her to be…she was terrified… “
…” he said softly. She didn’t reply, she was too scared to even breathe. He moved closer and saw the fear
increase in her eyes. “Don’t worry….I’m not going to hurt you anymore…” he said as he
continued to approach her. He felt so guilty and low as he watched her shaking in the corner. He sat down close to her; she
was still shaking with fear. “I don’t know what to say…I’m so sorry…” He knew it wasn’t
any use saying this…the damage was already done…
looked at him and clamed down a bit. Although she was still slightly afraid.
gently took her arm and pulled her sleeve up to reveal her bruises once more. He
gently stroked her bruises and saw fresh tears flowing down her face. “Why didn’t you tell me…? I would
have stopped…” he said softly as he continued to stroke her arm.
was completely shocked…he could be such a soft person at times. The way he stroked her skin made her spine tremble.
“I was afraid…” she said softly. “When did it start?” asked
. He took her other arm and pulled the sleeve up to reveal more bruises. “Ever since you started pushing me…but
it got worst when you started pushing me harder…” she said, almost in a whisper.
was completely filled with guilt and he felt disgusted with himself. He didn’t mean to go this far… “Are
there other places where…”
started.
knew what he meant. There were other places where there were bruises. She gave him a slow nod and said, “But you don’t
have to see them…” she looked away. “Please, I have to know,” he said and lifted her face slightly
so that her
eyes met his
ones. She hesitantly pulled up her long pants and lifted her top up slightly to reveal small cuts and bruises on her legs
and her lower back, then quickly covering them again. Tears started to flow down
’s face when he saw the damage he had caused…and he looked away…
Part 4
“
?” said
, breaking the silence between them. “Yea?” he replied, his voice still shaking slightly. “Why do you hate
me so much?”
gave a sigh and turned back to face her. “I don’t hate you…I just…” he couldn’t go on.
“
? Just tell me…”
looked into her
eyes and heaved a sigh. It was finally time to reveal the truth. But, now that he thought about it…the reason seemed
really cruel….it wasn’t her fault at all...it was all because of….
… “Ok…I’ll tell you…but let me finish before you ask any questions,” he whispered. She
just gave him a silent nod.
“A year ago, I had this girlfriend…her name was Jenny…she
meant the world to me, everything between us was perfect…” he paused to take a breath. “Then…one day…I
went out of the country for a few days…when I came back…I found out…that…that….she had been….m-murdered…..”
couldn’t stand it anymore and burst into tears. Without thinking, he buried himself into
’s shoulder and she carefully put her arms around him; rubbing his back gently. “Just let it all out…it’s
ok…” she whispered, her hands still rubbing his back. Trying to comfort him.
was shocked by her reaction; he had been pushing her around, hurting her and here she was, trying her best to comfort him.
“You don’t have to go on you know…” she spoke softly when she felt tears sipping through her shirt.
“No, I have to,” said
. His voice shaking. “I found out that when I was away, a guy had been bothering her. She refused to go out with him
and he got really pissed with her. H-he…raped then murdered her one night when she was walking past an alley….”
Said
in a tiny whisper,
could barely hear him. “Shhh, you can stop now,” said
, she could feel the pain that
was feeling.
“I can’t stop now, you still have to know the reason…”
His arms had found their way towards her waist and was now hugging her tight as he continued to sob on her shoulder. “She
feels so fragile,” thought
. “I found out who was the bastard was who murdered her but I heard that he had committed suicide the next day…my
revenge couldn’t be fulfilled…”
listened carefully and wondered how this could all relate to the reason he had been hurting her. His grip tightened around
her waist when he finally mouthed out the words, “It was your brother….
…” At that moment, her arms left his back and she withdrew back to her position; hugging her legs and her face
buried in her knees. “
…no…no…I’ve managed to keep him out of my head. Of all people...why him…” she thought.
’s arms were still around her and he just went on, “ I had to get my revenge somehow…I had to hurt people
that he was closest to…they needed to feel my pain. I could hurt
, he was my best friend, he was my best friend…then…you came along…so…I…” but before
he could go on,
spoke up. “Don’t talk about
…” she whispered. It brought back terrible memories when
was around…he, yes he, her brother had abused her countless of times…
knew it as well but he could do nothing about it.
was always the one who dominated them. Now that
had mentioned him, all the memories which she wanted to forget kept flooding back. She thought that after
had gone…her troubles would be over…but it seems to have gotten worst…dead or alive…it was all because
of him…
“Why?! Refuse to believe that it was your brother who murdered my girlfriend??!!!
Trying to defend him!!??”
yelled. He pulled back and stood up in front of her. “I know you won’t believe what your ‘darling’
brother did it!!!”
yelled as
sat in the corner, frightened by his sudden outburst. “No…
is taking this the wrong way…” she thought, but the memories overpowered her and she just kept silent. Then,
they heard a slam and saw
standing in the doorway. “What the hell are you doing to my sister?!!” he bellowed. “I was just telling
her what that bastard of a brother you had did to Jen!”
yelled back. “Get out of the way
! Don’t you have any idea that you are bringing the damn memories back, the memories which me and
had to go through?!!! Do you have any idea that
used to abuse her almost every single night and I couldn’t do a single thing about it?? Have you any idea!!?”
shouted, his fingers clenched and then ran forwards to
and quickly putting his arms around her. “I…I…didn’t…”
said softly, looking towards the ground and saw
shaking badly in
’s arms. Her face pale….
Part 5
“Just get out!” yelled
and he hugged
tightly.
didn’t move from his spot, he was shocked. “How could anyone hurt her? She was so fragile, who could possibly
have the heart to hurt her?” thought
. “I had…” thought
. He shook his head, shocked at what he had done. “How could I have been this heartless?” “Didn’t
you hear me? I said get out!” yelled
once more, his arms still remained around
, who was still in a state of shock and fear. “I’m sorry…” he said softly and walked out of the house.
That night,
lay awake in bed. He couldn’t go to sleep.
’s terrified face was still fresh in his mind and he couldn’t get rid of it. He got up from bed and started rummaging
through his cupboard, looking for something. After a few minutes, he had found it; an old and dusty photo album. He began
flipping through its pages and started at the faces of him and Jenny smiling happily, arms tightly around each other. He missed
her so much, and she had been taken away from him. He put the photo album down and walked to his desk where some recent photos
lay. It was the pictures that
had taken when the four of them were at the beach; him,
,
and
. Even by then, he remembered he had just started pushing her around. He stared at her laughing face when she had seen
dunk a pail of seawater on top of him. This was before he had found out she had liked him. He stared at her picture once
more, he would give worlds to see her smiling face once more. He couldn’t believe he had turned his once cheerful girl
into a now drawn back person. He had stolen friends from her without
knowing, he had bullied her when she had done nothing t deserve it, he had thrown her love for him right back into her face,
he had caused her emotional pain when he found out he could use her love for him as a weapon to hurt her even more, he never
thanked her for all the kind things she had done for him, he had missed her last birthday which only consisted of
and
while she had saved up her money to buy him a new guitar for HIS birthday, and worst of all, he had denied her friendship.
He didn’t know why…but he had to see her…immediately…
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