I never meant the things I said
To make you cry
Can I say I'm sorry
It's hard to forget
And yes I regret
All these mistakes

“I’m sorry, I can’t do this anymore.” “Why are you leaving me?” “You know why. This can’t happen, . You’re my brother.” “No, I’m not. My parents brought you up, that doesn’t make you theirs.” I tried to ignore the hurt look on his face as I packed my bags, getting ready to leave my old life behind. Getting ready to leave behind. “I can’t do that to them. They took me in, they gave me a chance and how do I repay them. By breaking their son’s heart.” “What about last night? Didn’t that mean anything to you?” “It was me being stupid. I was upset, you kissed me to make me feel better.” “And what about the rest of it? Was that to make you feel better too?” “No! Look, it happened, it shouldn’t have happened. I can’t stay here anymore.” “Do you love me?” “You know I do. That’s why I have to leave, I can’t let this happen.” “If you love me, then stay.” “I CAN’T . Don’t you understand? Me and you…it can’t happen. If it gets out, it will hurt too many people. People I care about.” “And what about me? Doesn’t it matter that I’m hurting? I don’t want you to go, . I want you to stay here with me. We can make it work. I want us to be together. I want to wake up next to you every day for the rest of my life.” The tears were now rolling freely down both our faces. “I want that too.” I put my bag down and hugged him, feeling him shake with every breath. I will never forget the look on his face as I pulled away and straightened my shirt up. “What…where are you going?” “I’m sorry.” “But I thought…I mean…you. You’re definitely going?” “Yeah. , do us both a favour. Don’t drag this out, and let me go.” “Fine. I don’t want to say goodbye, but seeing as you’re so hell-bent on leaving and hurting those who care about you, I’m going to do as you say. I’m going to let you walk out of that door and out of my life, but if you do, it’s for good. You leave now and that’s it…you’re turning your back on me and that’s it. It’s over.” “It never began.” “So that’s it? You’re going to walk out of that door and forget I ever existed?” “No. I’m going to walk out of that door and my heart is going to shatter into a million little pieces, because you’re closing the door for good.” “It’s your choice . You don’t have to go.” “Yes I do. I’m sorry." I went to kiss him on the cheek, but he pulled back and walked away from me, leaving a small piece of paper on the table. “Don’t read it until you leave.” I heard a door slam upstairs, and that was that chapter of my life closed for good.

I don't know why you're leaving me
But I know you must have your reasons
There's tears in your eyes
I watch as you cry
But it's getting late

Perhaps I should explain. My parents died when I was young. ’s parents took me in and brought me up as their own. Me and had always been close. I still remember the day I realised that I loved him as more than a friend and more than a brother. I also remember the day he found out. I’ve never seen him look as serious as he did that day. It was as if a burden had been offloaded. It hurt so much, having to walk away from him, knowing it was for good, but there was no way I could risk him finding out the truth. I knew that if he found out, it would change everything. I’d turn his whole life upside down, and I couldn’t bring myself to do that to him. He meant too much to me.

’s P.O.V

I couldn’t believe that she actually left. I didn’t think she would when I set her that ultimatum. Looks like I didn’t mean all that much to her. Doesn’t she realise what this is doing to me? It’s tearing me up inside that I can’t be with her the way I want to. All I got was one night…one memory of her. The way she looks, the way she smells, the way she tastes. I watched her walk away from my bedroom window. She didn’t turn back…not once. I realised I’d lost her for good. I curled up in bed, pulling the covers over my head. I could still smell her perfume. It lingered in the air, acting as a reminder of what I’d lost. I let her walk away. Why did I do that? Maybe if I’d tried harder…maybe if I’d done more to convince her. Maybe’s all I’ve got left.

The phone rang and I flew across the room to pick it up. I held the receiver to my ear and waited to hear her voice, but it never came. “Hey . What’s up? Oh, right…sorry, it completely slipped my mind. I’ll be there as soon as I can. What? No, I haven’t been crying. I’m fine…yeah, mate. See you there.” I put the phone down and cursed. I wasn’t in the mood to go out anywhere. I reluctantly got dressed and went downstairs, picking up my keys on my way out. As I lifted them, something else dropped off the table and onto the floor. I picked it up, instantly recognising it as the bracelet I’d given her for her last birthday. Why would she leave it behind? I didn’t understand.

I closed and locked the door behind me, placing the bracelet into my pocket. I was already running late, I didn’t think I should waste any more time or I was certain the guys would kill me. The mood I was in right now, it would have been a welcome escape. “Sorry I’m late, I had something to sort out.” “No problem, just don’t make it a habit. Are you sure you haven’t been crying? , mate…what’s wrong?” “She left. ’s gone, and I just let her walk away.” I broke down in tears, and they stared at me, obviously not knowing how to react. I mean, here I was, a grown man…well, nearly…crying my eyes out.

Was I invading in on your secrets
Was I too close for comfort
You're pushing me out
When I'm wanting in
What was I just about to discover
When I got too close for comfort
Driving you home
Guess I'll never know

My P.O.V

I’d left the note in my pocket and I have to admit, I completely forgot about it. it didn’t take me long to find somewhere to stay, or to make new friends. By the end of the month, I had settled into my new life, but there was still one thing that was nagging at me. . I couldn’t forget about him, no matter how hard I tried. I missed him so much. I regretted the day I walked out on him, but there was no way I could have stayed. Genetically, he wasn’t my brother, but I’d grown up believing he was the next best thing. To fall in love with him wasn’t only wrong, it was strictly forbidden. I couldn’t ever have a proper relationship with him…not one that everyone knew about. We’d have to sneak around the whole time, making sure nobody knew about us. Keeping it from the world like it was some dirty secret. We both deserved better than that.

“ , I’ve got a surprise for you babe. Tickets to that band you like, what’s their name? Mcfly or something. Anyway…they’re touring the UK, and I got us front row seats.” I turned to look at my new best friend. “ , how did you manage to get hold of these. I’ve been trying for ages, but they’re like so rare, I was beginning to doubt they existed. Thank you so much.” “It gets better.” She held up two backstage passes as well, and my face fell. Seeing was one thing, him seeing me was another thing completely. “What, don’t you want them?” “No! No, it’s just, I was hoping not to run into someone, and if we’re backstage meeting the guys, that’s going to be damn near impossible.” I took the tickets from her, my hands shaking. “Thank you again. You’re the best mate ever.”

The day of the concert was drawing nearer, and I was beginning to resemble a nervous wreck. I wanted to see him again, but was he going to keep his word and cut me out of his life completely. Would he pretend he didn’t know me? Was he going to make some excuse and walk away again? All these questions were filling my mind, and soon, I’d get the answers.

’s P.O.V

As I walked past the dressing room, I thought I saw her, but quickly shook the thought out of my head. There was no way she’d come back into my life now. She’d made it perfectly clear when she left that she wanted a fresh start away from me. I sat down in front of the telly and randomly switched through the channels, not really paying attention to what was showing. She filled my head again. Every time I blinked or closed my eyes, I could see her face, the tears rolling down her cheeks as I turned my back on her. I wondered if she read the not I left her. That explained everything. I only hoped that it would save her heart from being broken like mine had been.

“Oi, mate. Over here, we have company.” “Yeah, yeah, I’m there. Hi I’m… ?” Shit, it was her. She was wearing the same outfit she had been when she left me. She looked absolutely stunning as usual. I gulped and sat back down, unable to believe that this was happening to me. She smiled and said hello before turning back to the others. This could not be happening to me. She couldn’t be back in my life just as I was getting used to the fact that she was no longer part of it. “can you sing one of the songs form your new album? Too close for comfort, I like that one.” The girl that was with her spoke up and I saw flinch. Obviously she’d heard the album. “Yeah, not a problem.” We set up quickly and started the song. sat down on one of the chairs and shoved her hands in her pockets, slightly uncomfortable by the looks of it. a look of confusion appeared on her face and she pulled her hand out, holding a piece of paper.

Remember when we scratched our names into the sand
And told me you loved me
But now that I find
That you've changed your mind
I'm lost for words
And everything I feel for you
I wrote down on one piece of paper
The one in your hand
You won't understand
How much it hurts to let you go

I looked straight at her as we played, and she understood. I watched her unfold the piece of paper and started reading the note. All my feelings for her poured out, leaving me vulnerable. The song ended and she continued reading. ‘I never wanted it to turn out like this, but you made your mind up. I just wanted to let you know that you’re my world. I love you more than words can express. You’re the sun that melts my heart, and I just wanted to tell you not to leave it too long, or it might melt away completely. Save me, or tell me it’s over for good, but whatever you do, don’t leave me hanging. The thread that’s holding me up can only take so much before it snaps.’

My P.O.V

He was staring intently as I read the note. I looked up and caught his eye, and all the old feelings I had for him rose to the surface again. I nodded slightly and he got up. I could feel my heart rate quicken as he crossed the room and I stood up too. Before I knew what was happening, I was in his arms, and he was kissing me in front of all these people. For the first time in my life, I didn’t care who saw us, I was happy. I wrapped my arms around his neck and kissed him back. Everyone clapped and cheered and whistled as we finally broke apart. “I thought you said it’s over for good if I walked out that door.” “Like you said, it never really began. I love you , I’ll never stop.”

Was I invading in on your secrets
Was I too close for comfort
You're pushing me out
When I'm wanting in
What was I just about to discover
I got too close for comfort
Driving you home
Guess I'll never know

“So, what was this big secret you keep talking about. The one you can’t tell me?” “I’m in love with you. I have been for god knows how long, and I couldn’t tell you until now, because I was scared you wouldn’t feel the same. I didn’t want my heart broken.” “So you decided to break mine instead?” “That wasn’t part of the plan…I didn’t know how much you cared.” “Well you do now.”

All this time you've been telling me lies
Hidden in bags that are under your eyes
And when I asked you I knew I was right
But if you turn your back on me now
When I need you most
But you just let me down, down, down

I sat outside the arena waiting for to come out. The show had finished half an hour ago, and the boys were getting a stern talking to for mucking about on stage. I guess it’s true what they say, boys will be boys. I needed to see him, to tell him something, but it was cold outside and I was seriously contemplating leaving. I was just about to get up when the door opened and they came out. He walked straight over to me and wrapped an arm around my waist. “We need to talk.” “Sure, what’s up?” “I want you to give me a lift back to mine, then I want you to go home and go to bed.” “But…” “No buts. ‘s waiting for me, and you’ve had a long day.” “So you’re leaving me again?” “Can we talk about this later, I want to go home.”

Would you think about what you're about to do to me
And back down...

The next morning, I woke up early and started packing my stuff, ready to go back home. I didn’t see a reason for me to stay here now that I knew felt the same way. “I’m gonna miss you, chick.” “I’ll miss you too, but hey. This is we’re talking about. I can’t let him go.”

Was I invading in on your secrets
Was I too close for comfort
You're pushing me out
When I'm wanting in
What was I just about to discover
I got too close for comfort
You're pushing me out
When I'm wanting in

’s P.O.V

I opened the door and there she was. “ ?” “You don’t mind do you? I wanted to come home, but I needed to pack my stuff first.” “Mind? Of course not, come in.” I picked her up and spun her around, so happy that she was finally with me. She wasn’t running away from her feelings anymore. “What made you change your mind?” “You know me . I don’t give up on anything, so I certainly wasn’t about to give up on love.” I stayed snuggled in his warm embrace as I looked around the house that will always be home to me.

What was I just about to discover
When I got too close for comfort
Driving you home