I turned round as i walked through the gates at Chicago O'Hare Airport I gave him a small wave and blew him one last kiss before i turned round the corner and walked a little way to board my plane i hauled my pink bag onto my shoulder and wiped my eyes the tears wouldn't stop i pulled out the letter he had given me and held it tight in my hands as i took my seat near the back of the over crowded plane where screaming children and exhausted parents sat i put my seatbelt on and undone the letter taking out the small folded paper unfolding it i smiled

,
Do you miss me?
x

If i was on the phone or emailing him i would reply with the usual 'Of course i miss you' after two years he still found the need to ask me knowing my reply would always be 'Of course i miss you' it was a regular thing for us and it made me smile every time he asked . I missed him so much and he knew it. With him living in Chicago which is like a million miles from England i wasn't unusual to miss him on a daily basis the times i didn't miss him? When i was with him in my holidays or when he was here. How we had met? Well thats easy I was on a gap year working the music shop in downtown Chicago 'Marvin's' i think it was called i cant quite remember it was two years ago and i can only remember him being there everyday checking out Cd's and occasionally picking up a bass guitar and having a go i would stand and watch him and three weeks into it we were on our second date his accent still makes me melt and go weak at the knees like the very first time he asked me my name.

Chapter Two

I watched as she disappeared out of site and sighed digging my hands deep into my pockets i turned making my way slowly out of the airport i slid into the awaiting car and slouched in my seat she was gone for another month maybe more i couldn't tell.I watched Chicago flash by as the car sped down the highway taking me downtown home wasn't so homely now she wasn't there vegged out on the sofa watching 'Oprah' reruns she claims there better over here in America the English ones are old and they hardly ever get reruns it made me smile the way she would lay her legs stretched over mine my over sized Chicago soccer shirt and a pair of pink shorts on a can of diet coke in hand the control resting on her stomach laughing and gasping at the stories that appeared in front of her. I sighed everything was out of place without her she knew that.

I unlocked my front door shouting to my mum i was home my mum loved she thinks she so cute with her English accent and English ways she adores her and makes sure everything is extra special just for my i watched as mum made her way out into the hallway "i found this on the table just after you left" she said kissing my cheek i smiled and thanked her making my way into my room flopping on my bed i smiled at the front of it

.
Of course i miss you
x

I smiled and placed the letter right above her picture on my pin board i kept all her letters in a box under my bed but this one needed a special place It was like she knew i would give her a letter and she knew the answer before she had even got it.Maybe it was just a natural thing to us now i ask her alot and she always has the same answer 'Of course i miss you' it made me smile the way she would giggle down the phone and her English accent would ring through my ears as she repeated those five simple words it wasn't easy the phone bills were massive but we've managed for two years and we would share the calls one day her one day me and any other calls we wanted to throw in for good measure would be handled after it was funny how our calls finish with 'Do you miss me?' 'Of course i miss you' then a simple 'I love you' before we would hang up with my saying night for that moment and her saying 'sweet dreams for later ' I missed her and it was funny how she never asked if i did i take it she knows i do and doesn't want to ask.

Chapter Three

I woke up as the airhostess shook me i smiled at her as i picked up my bag still holding his letter i got off the plane making my way to the luggage collection and then out into the sunlight my friend May was waving madly as i walked over hugging her "Hey have a good time?" she asked as i nodded and slid into the passenger seat "Tired?" she asked as i smiled "Just a bit i slept a little bit on the way back" i said "So home then?" she asked as i smiled "If you don't mind i think i need to see everyone" she nodded "I'll call round tomorrow or I'll call you and you can tell me all about it" i smiled she was trying to make me feel better and it was kind of working i pulled my phone out and smiled as i text him.

An answer to your letter
Of course i miss you.
I'm home now see you in a month?
x

I placed my phone back into my bag knowing it was at least half two in the morning out there May turned to me "Get me anything?" i laughed "I did its at the bottom of my case but you will get it" she smiled as i watched her pull into my drive i got out of the car hugging her and thanking her for the lift i pulled my suitcase out of the boot and placed my key into my lock waving May off as she pulled away "I'm home" i shouted and smiled as mum and dad looked up from their place in the garden i walked out and smiled as they got up to greet me once the 'Hi's have a good time?' were done i retreated to my room for a rest placing his letter by my bedside i flicked on the telly and relaxed into my pillows. Why didn't he just stay with me or why didn't i just move to Chicago? We had both agreed that it was easier if we stayed with our families for a while but after two years i was getting restless wanting to get out of here and wanting to see the world with him on the other hand liked how he lived but i knew deep down he would like us to be together more often but we had restrictions in different parts of the world meeting was the best keeping up the relationship was proving difficult.

Chapter Four

I opened my eyes as my phone lit up my room I had been tossing and turning for over an hour trying to sleep it was always the same the night she left everything was different and i didn't like it my whole body didn't like it and it would tell me and not let me sleep i reached out of the covers and pulled my phone from the bedside table pressing ok to the message i read it and smiled and hit reply . The room was cold and empty without her and i didn't feel quite right i knew i had to do something about it this time was worse then the times before and that told me something. I closed my eyes trying to get to sleep and failing she hadn't text back and maybe a phone call would help but then may be she had fallen asleep long flights always made her tired and every time she flew over here she would come straight upstairs and curl up falling asleep me watching her for a while before deciding on making us something to eat once she woke up many times i woke her up tell her that food was ready she would sit up and come down ready to talk with the family and happily enjoy the first meal of her stay. I missed her and i knew what i was going to do it made me buzz just thinking of it talking with mum tomorrow would help me work it out and hopefully make me and spend more time together but for now i was needing my sleep and i knew that i blew a kiss at her picture her cute smiling face and turned the light out snuggling under the duvet i fell asleep with much more ease.

Chapter Five

I woke up first thing i done was reached for my phone smiling seeing a message from him made me smile

Thats good coz i miss you too.
I'm going to work this out
Missing you is killing me.
Do you miss me?
x

I hit reply wondering why he had been up at the time of the morning but i properly knew why the same reason i was if it was him who had visited i walked down stairs into the kitchen getting some food i made my way into the garden pulling a chair up next to my dad and smiling as my mum put her book down "Had a good sleep?" she asked as i nodded munching on my food "When you going back?" my dad asked as they both watched me "In a month but if i cant make that then its going to have to wait till he comes here in two months" they nodded they both liked they both liked the way we didn't rush into anything like moving in with each other but the fact was they liked the way i didn't rush over to live with him after only meeting him in my gap year so thats why they were fine with him and supportive of our relationship even if my older brother told me that long distance relationships didn't work and it would soon fade out they supported me every step of the way making me forget about my brothers comment and getting on with the relationship to prove him wrong but to make it work so it was better then ever and at the moment it was.

Chapter Six

I woke up squinting in the sunlight that was shining through the open curtains i reached for my phone and read the message

What are you going to do?
Missing you is also killing me
So
Of course i miss you
x

I smiled hitting reply even if she wouldn't get it right now she would be curled up asleep the small smile playing on her lips as she dreamed yes i had watched her countless times so i knew what she looked like when she slept i slipped out of bed and down stairs "Morning " smiled my mum as i sat at the breakfast table my mums famous waffles cooking as she hummed along to the tune on the radio "Mum would would you say if i told you i was going to look for a place to live with in London?" she turned from the cooker and looked at me her motherly face on she opened her mouth "Well i would tell you that i think its a idea you would have to think about" I rolled my eyes "I HAVE thought about it and its the only option for us" i said as she sighed "Then i would support you and miss you all the way" i smiled "Its not like i wont come home mum i will" i said as she put two waffles on my plate kissing my head "I know you will " i smiled and dug into the waffles before me knowing that maybe our situation had just improved next step using the internet to find cheap livable flats in London then telling which i knew would be the easiest thing to do. Finishing my waffles i made my way back upstairs logging onto he computer Lauz had helped me set up so we could use more ways to stay in contact i made my way through hundreds of estate agent sites hoping i would find the perfect place for after all as long as she was happy i was happy thats the way i saw it and it suited me fine on the other hand told me that it wasn't all about her but to me it was and she couldn't change it that annoyed her.

Chapter Seven

Waking up to his texts made me smile and feel better about the day ahead but texts like this one for example made me wonder what he was up to over in Chicago.

That you will find out
It wont hurt for much longer promise.
I miss you too
x

How can it not hurt for much longer a month felt like years so of course it would hurt for another so called year in my eyes. But as i lay in bed thinking of him i smile and manage to get up ready to face work in Marty's coffee bar before going out with May in the evening for a catch up and a good girlie night in London once i was in i would book my flight to Chicago for next month well if Marty lets me have it shes getting annoyed by this leaving every other month having weeks off here an there and at the moment she was understaffed so i was under payed affording it this time could become a big struggle . I still smiled as i pulled on my yellow and white shirt along with my black skirt as i pulled on my skin colored stockings i looked up at the pictures of me and Pete thinking about how working for Marty helped me enjoy those good times i slipped on my black pumps and pinned my name tag on brushing my hair i smiled and left for work. Marty was happy so that made my day and it felt like i hadn't even been away she had employed two new girls and everything was cheerful at Marty's again i felt like if i left to live in Chicago i would be lost without this place so maybe i would have to stay restless for a while longer.

Chapter Eight

I put the phone down everything was set and would hopefully go ahead in a month the flat was just inside London and had a brilliant view i checked the time realizing that would be on her break i picked up my phone and dialed her number as i flopped back on my bed. Of course the conversation ended with 'Do you miss me?' she seemed happy about the flat and the fact she could still live in London we had agreed that i should start moving stuff down soon just so it was easier and i couldn't say no it meant seeing her before the actual moving in date and that I as happy about . I had told mum she looked upset and told me that i would have to bring to visit her well of course i would its not like i was just abandoning Chicago for London i was just leaving it for and our happiness which she understood and said she would have to come over and visit the place once it was all done and we were settled i don't think the smile left my face for the rest of the evening and everyone had noticed. As i got ready to go to bed that night i thought about how easy it would be for me to sleep when i was next to all the time and how easy i would be able to talk to her and tell her I loved her everything would be easy and like one big vacation .I picked up my phone.

Sweet dreams for later Angel
Flight is being booked tomorrow shall give you details
Do you miss me?
Love you x

I placed the phone beside my bed and rolled over thinking of and how happy she seemed on the phone i fell asleep with a smile on my face one that would hopefully stay.

Chapter Nine

As i put the phone down i felt a big grin spread across my face and i felt like screaming had just brought us a flat just inside London we're moving in in a month and he's hopefully coming down next week to bring some stuff and so we can have a look around the flat of course the first person i told was May she seemed happy she had met Pete once for twice and liked him she was also glad i wasn't leaving her for Chicago how could i? Mum and Dad seemed pleased by the idea of me staying in London also so i couldn't imagine how 's family felt he was leaving them to go a million miles across the ocean for some girl i was sat on the computer that night May couldn't make it so i decided staying in was the best option as the text came through i hit reply.

Night .
I cant believe it
I love you so much
Of course i miss you
But not for much longer
sleep tight
x

As i hit send it hit me we would be like a proper couple and we had proved to my brother long distance relationships do work if you put the effort and love into them which me and certainly had and everyone could see that i was glowing and decided to type him a long email .

Chapter Ten

she never fails to amuse me or shock me i wake up to a text which from the looks of things means shes the happiest girl in the whole of england right now but i log onto my emails and theres a huge email from it it went like this.

.
When you told me you were 'Working something out' It had me wondering what my boy in downtown Chicago was up to and why he wouldn't tell me all he would say was 'It wont hurt for much longer promise' it had me worried like you were breaking up with me to save us hurting or something big like that but nothing this big you leaving your hometown for a girl who lives in London leaving all your American roots all your family for me this made me see how truly amazing you are and how much I must mean to you i mean its not like every boy i know decides that after two years hes going to buy a flat in and different country just so we can be together. Then i thought that we must be really strong and in love if we've made this last two years being over a hundred Miles away from each other my days are now brighter knowing it will only be a week till i see you then after that i can see you everyday it makes me smile just thinking of you but most of all that American accent which never fails to make me weak at the knees and melt at you feet its by far one of the best things about you but the best thing about you really has to be your personality you've showed me so much love in the past two years and this makes me believe in us.
So i just want to say i love you & of course i miss you.
x yours forever x

So once i had read that and replied i made my way onto the fight site we used to book all our flights maybe a earlier flight was in order just for a surprise .

Chapter Eleven

Waking up to something from was great but waking up to sitting in your living room with his bags packed was even better jumping on him he smiled and wrapped his arms round me holding me tight it had only been two days and it felt like a year and this was the best morning of possibly my life right now him sitting there huge grin on his face arms open and the words "Did you miss me?" coming muffled from some where in the mass of my brown hair was great the way his lips found mine in a soft gentle kiss he carried me back up stairs as i asked how he got in her laughed "your mum and dad were up and ready for work" i smiled of course Wednesday my day off and that meant everything right now me and a relaxing day together so as i snuggled into his chest making my self comfortable taking in his ish smell he asked "Did you get the email?" i shook my head and he smiled "It wasn't as good as yours" i laughed and rested my head back on his bare chest "So are you staying her till the flat is ready?" he nodded and i kissed him as he ran his hands through my hair.

Chapter Twelve

The day had finally come me and moving into our first but not our last home together everything was hectic stressing over what stuff she wanted and didn't want me trying to calm her down rubbing the small of her back she she rested her head on my shoulder watching the removal men carry boxes out and into their van her mum and dad telling her that she could leave what she wanted when i could see in her eyes all she wanted to do was crawl up and hide somewhere preferably with none around they all left us to the last bit of packing she smiled at me her lips pressing against mine as she made her way back over to her wardrobe chucking random clothes at me and handbags into the box i laughed as she sighed "Do i want this ?" "Urm yes?" she giggled "Ok then" she chucked it in the box and giggled as she sat on her floor i joined her and she linked her fingers through mine "This will get better right?" i kissed her cheek "Yes it will" she smiled "Good" as she closed her eyes.

The flat was great was now vegged out on the sofa nearly everything was done and sorted and it was feeling like a home our home our room our kitchen our everything i jumped onto he sofa next to him looking at the clock it was midnight and i was tired so i took his hand turning the telly off we made our way to our room and i slipped into bed and he did too wrapping his arms round me tight i smiled and he kissed me. I was just falling asleep when i heard him " ?" "Mhm?" i answered as he laughed "do you miss me?" i giggled "Nope not anymore" i said kissing him softly.